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Sexting with Jake

FIRST by Jacob Louder - available 4/4/14! Click image for excerpt.

FIRST by Jacob Louder – available 4/4/14! Click image for excerpt.

Jacob Louder’s literary porn novella, FIRST, launches tomorrow. Jake’s book is a radical porn utopia, and you shouldn’t read it unless you’re comfortable with young folks who are under the “legal age of consent” having powerful and connected sex with one another–sex that helps them to be and discover who they are. (Hats off here to Nabakov, who we pretty much idolize at GDP.) Anyhoo, I asked Jake to send me five texts–or “sexts,” if you will–explaining why he decided to write about kids having sex, in First. Here’s what he sent:

1. I’m continually impressed with kids who can identify who they are as sexual beings at such an early age. Even if they can’t identify who they are just yet, it seems like they’re more open to exploration and less consumed with labels. In First, I romanticized this idea. Everyone does what they want with people who want it, with no thought on the past or present. They all live in the moment. There is no shame. These kids are ideal human beings. If they were real, and if there were more of them–lots, lots more–the world could have the most loving, compassionate future.

2. I think I wrote First for me and for everyone else who came out young-ish in the early 90s. It was a completely different climate, with the HIV/AIDS crisis completely snubbed by the U.S. government, very full “closets” in almost every industry, city, and suburb, and not nearly as much representation in the media as there is today. There was no marriage equality. (I have to note, though, that in almost every way, my generation had it much better than the generations before me. I have to thank the love and fight in every single person, in every single activist, who ensured that my coming out and my young existence as queer wasn’t nearly as fucked up as theirs may have been.) At Nico’s age, I never thought I’d be happy with who I was. I thought that I’d have to figure out how to be heterosexual one way or another. I thought I was the only kid who felt the way I did. I had no role models (until I turned about 17 or so). So, Nico is the boy I wish I had been, living a very different life in a very different climate, and fully recognizing that love can be with anyone, as long as there’s honesty and respect. I’m living a bit vicariously.

3. Kids watch porn. Kids have sex. I’m sorry, Moms and Dads, but they do.

4. I think it was easy to write this young utopia because I see kids as being “romantically unblemished.” This isn’t to say that those of us over the age of 18 can’t live or don’t live like the characters in First. But when I think of wide-eyed openness and trust, I think of young humans, of anyone who hasn’t had their hearts ripped out of their chests, like most of us have, one way or another. It was important for me to have every heart on a sleeve. (Except for the case of Rory and John, but their “relationship” is another slice of life that I find kind of interesting to explore.)

5. I wanted to show young people as smart, grounded, and capable of significant amounts of kindness and intimacy. I wanted to show them as nonjudgmental and open and accepting of everyone and everything, as long as that everyone-and-everything are from places of love. I wanted to show them as better than us.

Thanks a million, Jake. I was so moved by your sexts. And folks, FIRST will be available on Friday 4/4/14. Can’t wait!

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Porn Stars at Duke, Sex Workers in Opera! If That Isn’t Great Activism, We’ll Eat Our Hats.

Nabbed from the Sex Workers' Opera blog - First Meeting Results (click image to get there).

Nabbed from the Sex Workers’ Opera blog – First Meeting Results (click image to get there).

Congrats to porn star Belle Knox for coming out! Knox, who paid for her Duke University education by taking part in erotic movies, wants to help sex workers—possibly by starting a foundation. This is such great activism that it makes us do whirlwind Snoopy dances. (And if you’ve never seen Angela doing a Snoopy dance, believe me, you are missing out.)

In the NY Daily News, Knox says, “I really enjoy sex, and I’ve always loved watching porn, so it just seemed like I could pay my way through college doing something I really love doing.” Awesome, hm? Read more here.

And what a great time to mention the Sex Workers’ Opera—a new and exciting project in London, that will give voice to sex workers via operatic performance. Talk about great activism that smashes cultural stereotypes!

Also, if you’d like to read our activist erotic collection Shameless Behavior: Brazen Stories of Overcoming Shame, starring fabulous writers such as Laila Blake, Sommer Marsden, Zoe More, and Stella Harris, among talented others, pop over to Amazon Kindle and purchase a copy. You’ll tickle us pink, if you do!

Bravo to all.

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Freebies on our Birthday! Our New PornoCore Imprint

shutterstock_109928696Yes, it’s our birthday! We’re one today! And in honor of this, not to mention the coming holidays, we’d like to offer you, our GDP community, some sizzling free reads. In fact, check in every two days over the Xmas period because we’ll be pubbing similar freebies–all of them from our new PornoCore imprint.

What does PornoCore mean? Explicit, porny, connected sex stories, that feel real and, above all, HOT. These stories unabashedly use the language of porn to communicate real, enjoyable sex.

Our next free read will be coming this Sunday. Until then, here’s Jacob Louder’s PornoCore debut: Straight Shooter.

Baby, the cake’s on you…

READ STRAIGHT SHOOTER HERE.

And some big shout-outs to porn performers, directors and activists who just keep on inspiring us: Violet Blue, Nella, Tristan Taormino, Susie Bright, Jennifer Lyon Bell, Georgina Spelvin, Lady Cheeky, Shine Louise Houston, The Crashpad, Pink and White Productions, Barbara Carrellas. We heart you all. Here, have some frosting…

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Happy Almost Birthday, GDP! (Plus, Free Porn With a Connection Twist)

shutterstock_94888144Lana and I did some brainstorming about what we’d do to celebrate Go Deeper Press’ first birthday. Can you believe it? We’ll be one-year-old on December 20, five days before Christmas, fifteen days after Chanukah, and six days before Kwanzaa. So, of course we wanted to celebrate with you all.

We decided that we’d give away well-written “free porn” to give thanks to all our mailing list subscribers, Twitter and blog followers, our Facebook “Likers,” and every single person who’s bought one of our books and/or stopped by our website for a few minutes or so. It was interesting, this distinction we made. We would not give away “transformative” or “rebel” erotica. We’d write and offer for free on our website Penthouse Forum-style pieces: quick, short wank stories for all our friends over this holiday season.

So, we started. Lana’s first story came in over 2,500 words, mine 1,500-ish. Her second story came in around 2,000, mine over 3,000. For some reason, we couldn’t seem to get the formula right. Don’t get me wrong: These stories are porny, and we’re very proud of just how porny they are and hope you’ll enjoy them tremendously (wink, wink). It took us a little while to figure out why we couldn’t crank out what we had intended. But then—boom—there it was.

We’re fans of connections. Even if they’re shallow or selfish or voyeuristic or whatever. To write true, connected porn, we’ve found, you need to build at least a little story, breathe some sort of emotion into your characters, and then let them run around with their pants around their ankles. Lana, by the way, was the first to put this to words. “This works because they’re connected,” she said. I replied, “That’s what makes porn sexy for me.”

How many clips have you seen on the internet where some guy is pounding a big-breasted blonde, and not only are they not looking at one another, they’re hardly touching, other than, of course, that whole cock in cunt or asshole bit. And they don’t really communicate to one another, but the blonde is probably wailing away like she’s never felt anything so good in her life, and if Mr. Big Cock is making any noise at all, he’s probably letting out a little grunt every now and again.

This porn’s good, right? I don’t want to take away from its value and the purpose it serves for many people in this world. Would I pay for it? No, I wouldn’t, and maybe that’s why it’s a free clip on the internet. I wouldn’t buy it because those actors usually aren’t connected and so it sometimes looks really fake, and although I love it when guys blow their loads on women’s tits, I don’t like it when they’re looking only at their cocks and the women are on their knees looking up at the guy all “horny, little slut” because I don’t believe it for a second. That said, I hope they both got paid and were treated well.

Porn I would buy and have bought: Viv ThomasUnfaithful series (which stars my girl Nella, just FYI), Matinee and Headshot by Jennifer Lyon Bell and Blue Artichoke, Tristan Taormino’s Rough Sex, a whole slew from the Candida Royalle crew—and there’s more and more. Big surprise: I would argue that, in all of these films, we are witness to actors living out a story and connecting sexually with their co-stars. Whether it’s slaps to the tits or eye contact during penetrative sex or a prolonged French kiss, these films offer something that holds my attention, making them perfect “rewatch” candidates, especially on snowy Friday nights, or any night, to be honest, but I digress.

Go Deeper Press loves porn. Oh God, we do. Lana and I are talking now about doing a more “porny” line at GDP, and we’re kicking around names like PornStyle and Porncore (or PornoCore, which reminds me of “homocore,” and so now you know where my allegiance lies) and Rumpy Pumpy. The great thing about this, I think, is that—and I can guarantee you this—we will publish incredibly explicit content that not only is the hottest of its kind, but will provide the element that makes pornography work for us: a steamy, sweaty, hot connection.

What I hope you’re asking now is “WHEN DO WE GET FREE PORN?” Well, our birthday and Christmas is coming, friends, so be sure to sign up for our newsletter (if you haven’t already) and check your inbox for more information on when to stop on by at godeeperpress.com.

Thanks for reading! Guzzle up our sexy reads at Amazon, Barnes & Noble, or Go Deeper Press (for all e-readers), and we’ll love you forever.

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Rape Fantasy Erotica: Right or Wrong?

Bodice-Rippers often contain rape fantasies...

Bodice-Rippers often contain rape fantasies…

Sixty-two percent of undergraduate women have had rape fantasies. At least that’s what the studies suggest. Do these women enjoy their fantasies? According to the study, yes indeed. In fact, 14% of the women who were surveyed in the above study said they had rape fantasies several times a week. Do these women want to be raped in reality? I’m going to say no, no, no. And yet the world seems determined to push the idea that rape fantasies are immoral, especially when they appear in erotica and porn.

Interestingly, studies on men of any sexual identity who have rape fantasies are hard to find. But we do know that recent studies strongly suggest that if you watch porn, you’re less likely to be sexually violent. This Scientific American article by Melinda Wenner Moyer is brilliant and explains all. There is even the suggestion that men who turn out to be sexually violent were exposed to porn at a later age than those who aren’t. Interesting, hm?

Of course, women can be rapists, too. This is often silenced or forgotten, perhaps because society’s misogyny suggests that women can’t be strong or destructive. My goodness, how hard it can be for victims who’ve been sexually attacked by women to come out about their experience in a world that so often replies, “What did you just say?”

Now, let’s get even more personal.

Back when I was young, I had a very hard first 20 years of my life. Why? I was brought up to believe that sexual pleasure was disgusting, which led me into relationships with abusive people, and…well, let’s just say the story goes on. But over a decade later, I had some very significant healing through a consensual assault fantasy. Enacting this rape fantasy with a close and trusted partner led me to fear my memories far less, and also to enter my body more fully. The enactment told me, in its own way, “This role of victim is safe to play with, which means it is safe to recall and carry.” It also said, “You can enact this kind of scene, which means you don’t have to fear your real and vivid memories any more.”

For me, rape fantasy helped me heal virtually overnight. I felt that this terrible portion of my life was done and over.*

Do I read, write and enjoy erotic stories of assault/rape fantasies? Absolutely. In fact, my recent release, Con, Vol 1: You Can Play it Safe When You’re Dead (which is currently a free e-book download) is about con artist twins who long for one another, but would never fully act on their desires — not until a mark turns on them with a gun and tells them to do what they ache to do…

In Huddle: Sex with Sporty Queers (Vol. 1, Boys Varsity), I recently enjoyed (for the umpteenth time) Theophilia St. Claire’s “Punishment.” In this story, two boys on the same team have been warring with one another, and their coach knows it isn’t healthy. But while the boys certainly seem to enjoy the sexual “punishment” he doles out, in my opinion they also seem a little afraid of their coach, and, what’s more, they never verbally give their consent. Is this story rape fantasy for you, as a reader, or not? Either way, it’s hot stuff.

In Femme Fatale: Erotic Tales of Dangerous Women, Zoe More’s “Our Courtship, Our Romance” is, in my mind, one of the most romantic rape fantasies I’ve ever encountered. In it, a woman who has been hurt by society’s cruelties, falls for a Bluebeard-like character who murders the women that fawn over him. She has rough sex with these women before her lover murders them. And yet, when I say this story is romantic, I really mean it. If you didn’t think serial killers could fall in love, think again, my friends.

I’m also a big fan of the film Secretary, plus the opening of Anne Rice’s The Claiming of Sleeping Beauty is rape fantasy to die for. Then there’s Alison Tyler’s Those Girls — a wonderfully empowering novelette that fully, and hotly, embraces the dom/sub dynamic.

Some people say that rape isn’t or shouldn’t be erotic, and yet many people who have been raped explain in studies that they felt a profound erotic response in their bodies. (In fact, in the amazing Survivor’s Guide to Sex [Cleis Press], Staci Haines explains that some of us who were assaulted/abused might not be able to orgasm afterward because we feel bad about how good our bodies felt when the abuse was underway.) The fantasy of rape can be arousing, and, of course, as you’ll read in Melinda Wenner Moyer’s article at Scientific American, for those who dream about being an attacker, such fantasy can be a powerful way of expressing the wish and thus controlling it.

Whatever your feelings about rape fantasy, I’m sure you have good reason for them. But if “rape” means sex without the full consent of one party, then perhaps Fifty Shades of Grey contains rape fantasy too, especially when Ana isn’t too sure about what she wants. And perhaps many of the bodice rippers of yore are also about assault. The cartoon villains who tie blondes to the railway tracks are surely just as “immoral,” and let’s not even start on the comedy skits of Benny Hill.

Of course, there’s evidence that those who own their fantasies are far more likely to be in control of them. A fantasy, if owned and expressed, doesn’t have to be damaging. Yet a scorching, boiling, bubbling will that is constantly blocked down will rise eventually.

I know that the person who most ruined my young life was both anti-porn/erotica and obsessed with having a “clean mind.”

And that doesn’t strike me as unusual. Not one bit.

You can buy Con: You Can Play it Safe When You’re Dead, Huddle: Sex with Sporty Queers (Vol. 1, Boys Varsity), and Femme Fatale: Erotic Tales of Dangerous Women from either the GDP website or Amazon or B&N.

*Healing from sexual trauma is different for everyone — we each need to find what is healing or painful for us, in particular, in the aftermath of trauma. I full recommend the Survivor’s Guide to Sex by Staci Haines. Also take a look at the resources at the Pandora Project. Namaste.

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Ingrid Bergman: A Porn Parody

PulpFiction_HSSGood morning, deeper ones.  At this end, we had a crisp and even Christmas Day (yes, it snowed in Massachusetts!).  Then, later, we watched Casablanca.  Oh Ingrid!  Oh Bogie!  Afterwards, I said to Angela, “Casablanca would make a great porn parody.”  After all, don’t all those desirous clinches and softly fevered kisses lend themselves to erotic film?  Anyhoo, nope.  There doesn’t appear to be a porn parody of Casablanca.  But I did find something rather delectable instead…

Yes, thanks to the artistry of (NSFW) Ision-Fakes.com, we kinda get to see Ingrid Bergman in the nip, Casablanca-style.  Not to mention Audrey Hepburn, and a host of other silver screen beauties.  Seriously genius!

What’s more, it turns out I’m not the only one hankering after specific porn parodies.  Last January, Crave Online listed the NSFW top ten porn parodies they themselves would love to see.  Do take a look.  Also, a little internet dabbling brought me to this — which is also NSFW.  It’s a rather old list of the “top 14” porn parodies.

And who knew that Pulp Fiction had received the parody treatment?   Oh, but Uma, Uma!  My heart is forever yours.

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Reasons We’re All About Sex, No. 3: Violet Blue at TinyNibbles

Violet Blue, famed sex/tech writer and activist, did a great deal for the Lana Fox of yore.  When I first moved to the USA, Violet’s TinyNibbles blog helped me to embrace my sexual self.  Violet speaks proudly and loudly about sexuality, and her porn writing and activism are nothing short of inspiring.  Here’s a talk that won her a standing ovation at Gnomedex, where she discussed sex and the net.  As you’ll see, Violet is sharply intelligent and proudly humane.  Get ready to warm the cockles of your sex-positive heart…

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Soft Porn and Psychic Phenomena (No, Really)

Anyone who says that porn-viewing has nothing to do with synchronicity, think again.  Angela and I were freshly connected to Emmanuelle, the 1970’s soft porn phenomenon, because of an amazing psychic hit.  Take a look at my recent post at the Good Vibrations Blog, The Buzz, to find out more.

Sylvia Kristel, may you rest in peace and always be remembered.

Pic by Steve [CC-BY-SA-2.0]

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How Do You Take Your Porn? Bareback or Wrapped?

Do not miss this great article courtesy of The New York Times, “Unlikely Model in H.I.V. Efforts: Sex Film Industry.” It is a fascinating, pretty unbiased expose into the rigorous testing regimen employed by the porn industry in California. With the City of Los Angeles having passed a bill requiring all actors to use condoms in January, this article does a solid job of explaining the reasons why this is not only unnecessary, but potentially damaging for an industry that seems to have its actors’ health front of mind.

Photo courtesy of Stephanie Diani and The New York Times.

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Who’s Your Porn Star? Lusting Over Nella

This is Nella. Nella’s a porn star. You might know her as Nelly, Claire, Jana, Marla, Jackie, Monica, Terry Lightspeed, or by any of the countless names she uses. She does lesbian-themed porn almost exclusively. It’s likely you’ve recognized her already if you’ve been privileged enough to see her perform, and, like most porn stars, her list of performances runs long.

The first time I saw Nella, she was in the Viv Thomas production, Unfaithful. I found her at a perfect time in my life: post-breakup, and when I had literally no interest in connecting with or trusting anyone again ever. (“Ever,” I think was what I said. “Never, ever again.” Interesting now to think how this movie title appealed to me.) And then there she was in this slick little film, with sexy, dark lighting, surrounded by other women with Eastern European accents. It was easy to warm to Nella, to trust her. She was an ocean, a continent away. There was only a small investment for her DVDs. But what made Nella stand out for me from the seriously fucking copious amounts of beauty that surrounds her on film is what makes her special to begin with.

As a woman who has sex with women, it’s easy to spot discomfort, uneasiness, or any other word that implies disingenuousness when watching two women have sex on camera. There’s tons of this available. You can see it in the tight-lipped kisses and the annoying giggles, and the lack of desire in body language and facial expression once lips are anywhere south of a belly button.

And then there’s Nella. Her confidence and comfort level in a scene with a woman are what’s seductive about her. I don’t know how she identifies or who she goes home to at night, and I don’t need to know because her illusion is so good, and there’s lots to be said for illusion in porn. It’s her very essence, the light she emanates when she’s on camera—the way she lowers her eyelids when she’s being coy, and how she relaxes her lips and mouth when she’s about to get what she wants, with the other actress’s panties already low at her hips. It’s in the way she opens up and connects.

I don’t fantasize about Nella. I don’t masturbate thinking about her. I will watch her in any scene, however, whether she’s fucking or getting fucked, or masturbating on a bed with her eyes closed and one hand on the headboard. I will watch her pose for glamour shots, which she’s doing a lot of now, and I will watch her talk about her on-screen name in a noisy bar wherever, just to catch moments like the one at 2:44.

I’d call Nella my porn star, my go-to, even if it’s in a hands-off way. Who’s yours?

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